Sunday, January 11, 2009

Explain it.

It's like a fire within me that doesn't seem to go out.
and is it returned?
No, it's shunned, it's looked upon as a disease, and as am I.
then why do you persist?
Because it hasn't always been this way.
and you believe that it will return to the way it was?
No.


I read "The Naming" again, it was amazing per usual.
I'm thinking about reading a classic now.
Made a new friend, really awesome kid, with a really awesome name.


God and I are never on the same page, he always seems to be just a few pages ahead of me, and although I should find that comforting, I usually just view it as disheartening.
I don't want to be as good as he is by any means.
I just want to feel as if he trusts me,
as if SOMEONE, anyone, trusts me.


My hair is getting super long, which I hoped would some how make me prettier, but my best friend still seems to think that I fall second, and we're both "screwed" although she doesn't really care if she is, she didn't aspire for it anyways.
"These things are just what I have to learn to live with."


I hate your logic.

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